everything is nothing

Five years of firsts
and starting over
My life changed forever the day you went away.
Why is it still so hard to get you out of my brain?
I can't seem to get you out of my head lately, and I really don't want you there.

I wonder though, is it the same for you?
If you go there
If you hear that
If you think and suddenly I am there.

Letting go was so so difficult
you kept me just out of reach, but not so far that i couldn't feel

You changed my life in so many amazing ways.
I was a ghost before meeting you
and sometimes I feel that way again, now that we are through.

I don't want you anymore, but there are still things I cannot do or places I cannot go
because
my thoughts turn to you...
they turn to you too often

we've moved on, both of us now.
But I can't help but wonder if you wonder, like I wonder
Do you remember all of the things that you and I did first?